Colors of Tomato

{March 8, 2008}   Take a picture it last longer


These are my beatiful flowers,

They remind me some of my joyful days,

some of my unexpected suprises,

and some of my tearful moments.

Those moments never last long enough,

and it dies after a period of time.

Only the great memories remained.

It  last longer.



{February 26, 2008}   If you want me satisfy me!

I was watching the movie “ONCE” on night after the Oscar monday.  I felt asleep in a middle of the movie, maybe I was too tired, or maybe I had too much drinks with a old friend of mine earlier. But all the sudden, I slowly woke up by…. the melodey…the rythm…then a beatiful voice start singing… I didn’t open my eyes… I was galvanizing with this song in the middle of the night.

        Are you really here        

or am I dreaming

I can’t tell dreams from truth

for it’s been so long

since I have seen you

I can hardly remember your face anymore

When I get really lonely

and the distance causes our silence

I think of you smiling

with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

if you want me satisfy me …

if you want me satisfy me.

Are you really sure

that you’d believe me

when others say I lie

I wonder if you could

ever despise me

when you know I really try

to be a better one

to satisfy you

for your everything to me

and I’ll do

what you ask me

if you’ll let me be


if you want me satisfy me

if you want me satisfy me

If you want me satisfy me

if you want me satisfy me.

If you want me satisfy me

if you want me satisfy me

{February 13, 2008}   What is wrong with me?

What is wrong with me? This is one of the question I asked to my other self.

I am like most of the average female, like to have health, well being, and independence. Am I doing whatever I can to be a heathly well being lady?

Maybe not……Still smoking with my work buddies

Maybe not…..I am not execrising often enough.

Maybe not…..I am still not able to be focus about what I needed to do.

Maybe not…..I am allowing to too many disruptions in my life.

Those are my inner voices to myself. My another self try to communicate to me that I need to do something to fix it.

I set a list of new year resolution, just like most of the people did.

Where is the list? It is in my mind, discussing with my other self, my better self to come up with a plan.

A execution plan 🙂

Happy Chinese New Year to Everyone!

{February 5, 2008}   My longest hour!

One of my friend’s posted his longest hour on his blog, and asked what is yours longest hour.

My longest hour is……every-night before I fall asleep, running different thoughts in my mind about my life.

My longest hour is ……studying time, trying for my post graduate degree which I have been procrastinated for long period of time.

My longest hour is……waiting in-line to check-in at LAX Tom Bradley Terminal, I couldn’t believed that USA a well developed country, it needs to such take a long time to check-in and go through the security screening. The 3 hours process is ridiculous.

My longest hours is……each time when I am flying back to LA from my Christmas and New Years vacations from home town in China. No sure why I need to fly back, to a place there is no one longing for me, a place that I am not sure if I could called it home. Just a place where I go to work, and I live at.

My longest hours is……my anticipation for something good and meaningful to happen.

The rest of my hours, as same as many of you,

I work, I live,

Day in, Day out.

So, What is your longest hour?

Photos of the neighborhood where I was born:

The Kitchen - Where my dad and mom used to prepare for meals during my childhood time Alley -where I was born

I’m not a religious person,  but I do pay my respect to the bibles sometime! Here is an perfect example! Where I find the answer of …what is LOVE.

1 Corinthians 13—Love

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.

If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. 

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.

Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Dana Point, CA

{December 2, 2007}   Recharged after my vacation

Sunset at Costa Rica - Pacific Ocean Volcano AreanelManual Anotnio Beach

I am back from Costa Rica. It was a great experience after all, most of my friends enjoyed it a lot. Me? I got great memories, time spent with friends, remarkable conversations. Also, I like the beauty of it when you go travel, you not only sharing your 247 with you friends, but also meet random travelers around the world, they would share their travel experiences, their life stories…etc. Sometime, I may find myself amuse that able to pocket some of their good values in to mine. For example, I met a couple from Belgium, we did the canopy tour together, and we encourage each other to do the Tarzan Swing, after the tour, we meet for lunch and had some great conversation about the different lifestyle between Americans and Europeans. I admired that most of the European living in a very simple, structured life style but yet they are able to enjoy their life, care less about the unnecessary materialistic things, they are up to day with the technology, the trend of fashion or such and such. But they choose to keep thing simple and to the basic. That I do admire. Most of them got a month long vacation, they used to plan a 3 weeks trip travel to different side of the world, to explore, to share the moments together, and to gain different perspective in lives. Very charming and sweet!

This trip helps me to keep my thoughts in a positive way, there are few things in life are not perfect right now, or I am struggling with…but don’t look of excuses to give up, life could be still beautiful, it depends on which angle you looking at it.

What a surprise? I just find out that one of favor my childhood artist is here in Los Angeles. Takashi Murakami – the artist for Ginga Tetsudo 999,.
During my primary school years, I used to love Japanese cartoons, not only their amazing animations, but also their touching stories with unforgettable cartoon characters. Of cause, back then I did not pay any attention the artist name, but I do remember their cartoon character names.

I find out about Murakami MOCA 2007 exhibition from one of the banner on LA street sign, it was completely random. Then I heard couple of friends mentioned about him with his latest high/low expressionist art works. I got curious! So I decided to check it out today after work.

Here are to some photos from this exhibition:


I really fascinated by his latest sculpture work and the Budda series paintings. Quote from one of the Budda painting


“I open wide my eyes but see no scenery, I fix my gaze upon my heart.,2007”

How many times you have been into a situation that is “not good enough, but not bad enough to leave”? It could be in different forms like in personal relationship, or in a career move…etc. What would most people do?

If this is about career, I think mostly people won’t have much doubts about to prepare for the better opportunities, and when the right time comes, people would make the change without any emotional attachment. However, what if this is about personal relationship? Won’t be more complicate and harder to solve the puzzle? Most common option, he/she would start look around for better one, then called it end when he/she falls for the new love. Or another option could be, he/she starts picking on each other, and starts on unreasonable flight, or seek for any excuses to accuse one’s something that not even true, in order to make a less guilt trip to out of the relationship. The least common option, almost close to mission impossible, which is to turn the situation over, try to make things better to rebuild the connection at the emotional level. I am sure it takes lot of efforts, and it may still not work out.

While I was reading “Marley and Me” , it inspires me that “When a situation goes bad, do you just quit and gave up, to abandon the one you used to love, used to share life’s ups/downs together with, or you would try every things possible to change…”

Every year, I would like to visit a city/country where I never been. This year I am able to team up with couple of my friends to make a trip down to Costa Rica.

I am currently in preparation for my trip, confirming all the logistic about hotels, tours, transportation…etc, also need coordinate with my friends how to meet up for activities, since not every one would arrive at the same day.

It is quit a bit of work, but I am enjoying it. Couple years back I was a solo traveler, part of it because of my work, another part of it because it was much easier to travel alone, no agenda, no expectations, every time you may meet random local people in the strange country. You could learn from their culture, try to observe how they live their live. Very interesting years back then. Comment about me from my friends was “You so hard to keep in touch with! I don’t even know where are you on earth!” 😉

In this recent two years, I have changed, maybe I got attached to my local job, or maybe I got reconnect to my old friends, met new friends…etc. Now, I would value more about the quality time I spend with my friends and family. Try to build more memories with them, so that we could better related to each other, as we growth old…..we could laugh at each other from those happy/silly moments.

I am start counting down the days to my trip now! Sorry for those friends that couldn’t make it for this trip. There are many trips to come! 😉

{October 28, 2007}   My 1st real Halloween Party!

Yes, this is my 1st real Halloween Party! In the past, I had been to couple Halloween parties in the past, either I didn’t dress up for it, or I dressed up without a specific character, the mood just was right. But this year, I am a full spirit Geisha!

Again, I still don’t like the fact I have to drive around the town looking for a Halloween costume. Every single store was fully packed with people, you almost have to line up to take a look a costume, plus the cash register line was ridiculously long. I lost my patience right there.

Lucky, one of my girl friend has a Geisha costume from last year Halloween, she let me borrow hers for the party! What a relief for me! Then the rest is easy, I just need to pick up few cosmetics from the drug store… then I am done! Take a look not too bad right! I was able to get everything match up quit well!

While I am at the party, I was fascinated by those people dress up really nice, and very sexy. Some of them even look like a real character from those scary movie. I couldn’t help wonder, people enjoy Halloween that much is it because we could pretend some one we are not? Like an ordinary man/woman, once a year, or few hours can be a scary ghost, a super hero…or a sexy Geisha. I guess it is a nice break from reality!

et cetera